these days........ its been about tripping as much as possible and believing in the impossible. i have been meeting some of the most beautiful creatures on this planet... in all shapes, sizes, circumstances, and situations. i forgot about this feeling, and its a great feeling.
i find that we go through so many things that sometimes we forget how to just be. well im okay, and a lot of lessons have been learned. i took a moment for silence. no glorious and fabulously acclaimed blogs, no overly inspiring twitter account [well gahdayum please follow me.. retweet everything i say.. you must know about everything i do.. etc.] mystery is key in my book and im quite okay with (you) NOT knowing.
most people feel that their approach must be so bold and bad ass- when truthfully our mere existence is what makes us magnificent. i have been noticing a lot of boasting around me, and its getting played out. im so tired of everything being a competition- life is NOT ABOUT YOUR STATUS. unfortunately im just preaching to the choir on that one. but its like cmon, i have never seen so many wonderfully talented people focus so much on each others lo's instead of motivating each others hi's.
who am i? ive never really felt like i make sense- and i dont care to.
just elevating. smoke sessions in hot tubs. kissing boys and falling in love with men. random bbq's on hazy sundays. im enjoying this new found freedom.. this growing up. shrooming has been a blast and im continuing to open up my 3rd eye whenever i want. im looking at the world differently and allowing life to take me on a thrill ride. im seeing sides of this city that i didnt know exist and im building my home in my heart. im disattaching from YOUR reality and tapping into mine. this is no agape (although the law is supreme!) this is no new found spiritual awakening, this is no sudden epiphany, this is simply the shell starting to crack a little more- and the woman that i am standing her ground a little more.
i see a lot on the horizon and i am excited. different cities every night, more awesome classes and excellent grades, apeshit loads of nu music, in the words of bri "monday night parties", connecting with great people, thrashing in 4 inch's, meeting random girls in fits, and holy celebrations on the beach. all nighters with psychedelics, challenging conversations, movies, falling in and out of love and being ok, exploring and groovy tattoos. showers when i feel like it, playing with a group of 5 year olds on the beach, karaoke bars and wurstkuche, random drives and trips up north, holding hands, amusement parks, dive bars with the boys, manicures and brilliant 4am adventures with the girls. this is about living on edge and being okay with the results. im not afraid, calling me weird is a compliment, and i always smile when i say fuck you :)
this is only the beginning......... feel free to stay tuned.
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